THE REAL REASON I’M LOSING FAT (THE ANSWER MIGHT SURPRISE YOU!)

This fall I wrote a blog post to share how and why I had been gaining body fat, and why I fully accepted and embraced it.

I was struggling with a lot of inner chaos, fear, stress, and sadness, and I trusted that I needed a little extra padding on me for protection. I knew that when I no longer needed to be protected, the fat would disappear again.

When I feel heavy on the inside I feel heavy on the outside.

This is perfectly normal and appropriate. My new belly fat wasn’t a problem, it was just a reasonable response to the emotional chaos I was working through. So I greeted it warmly, made it feel loved, and invited it to pose naked with me.

In December I did a naked photoshoot with my friend and photographer Chris. I showed up days after a breakup feeling puffy, pale, depressed, and exhausted. I told Chris to capture me exactly as I was; no smiles, no holding in my belly, no flexing, not even sitting up straight.